Insyaallah

She said that I can do it! Thanks friend. Not only for your advice but thanks a lot because giving back my strength and spirit. I nearly lost my enthusiasm in my life especially in what I'm doing now (read: I’m just started!). I thought this is what I want, and the things will come easier if we have interest on it. Obviously I'm wrong. Things never are as easier as I thought.

I admitted that life has a challenge and I'm still competing with others. But not in this type of race. Now, at 3.20 am, I'm awake. Awake from my sleep, from my dream and still developing the new spirit.

Allah is the best planner. If He puts me in this race it means that I can compete. Insyaallah.

new,new,new

Project? I just take for granted.hahaha.

My supervisor the one who are really serious in this project and me? I don't even start yet.

Every subjects got 'advance' at the end of their name and it's mean double triple of problems(BIG SMILE).

I'm the one who choose to do this project and now I need to face everything by my own. huh. Actually, this is what I dream of. so, no big deal. Insyaallah :P

Path

Life will never be the same. You have your own path and I have my own path. Never compare. Once you are comparing, you will regret.

Reading other friends blog make me thinks a lot. Did I choose the correct path? Which path is correct? How long I will still depend on others? I'm still puzzle. Even though I have decided, but I'm not enjoying the feeling. Is it means I chosen the wrong path?

I will drive my on life. live your life! but, it's not as easy as saying it. Need to consider other people feelings, opinions, plans and etc,etc. I'm bored!

one step forward.

This is the right time for me to take one step forward. I cannot stay in the flat environment anymore. I have decided. Whatever happen, I'll chase my dream.

am I exaggeration?

Delete my comment? It’s ok. I have done my responsibility as a muslim. So, it’s up to you.

Kancil couple

I meet this one couple yesterday at the shopping complex parking lot. Chinese couple by the way. Came out from ‘kancil’ and they looked happy. I’m wondering, are they satisfied with their life? I mean, they are couple, married maybe and they just have ‘kancil’ as their transport. Is it enough for them?

Since I was small I always remind myself to be prepared before I’m falling in love with someone. I must have a car (a good car), a good salary and etc (which are all the good things). I think love does not important if you have nothing. You know what I mean?

Whenever you have all this good stuffs, are you thinking of marry someone with no property at all? I bet you won’t! This is what happened to me. I’m start to look for the perfect guy, charming, rich, intelligent, and religious and all the perfect things.

You already have the answer, there is no such perfect man and how I end up? Stop looking for a man.

But, by looking at this couple I meet, it’s change my view on the relationship. Happiness is something that you cannot measure. It has no comparison at all. You cannot compare with money, car, house, good looking and etc. It’s natural.

Real

Life must go on. Everybody knows. I'm just ordinary person. Please, please don't aspect much from me. I have no strength to face it :'(