She said that I can do it! Thanks friend. Not only for your advice but thanks a lot because giving back my strength and spirit. I nearly lost my enthusiasm in my life especially in what I'm doing now (read: I’m just started!). I thought this is what I want, and the things will come easier if we have interest on it. Obviously I'm wrong. Things never are as easier as I thought.
I admitted that life has a challenge and I'm still competing with others. But not in this type of race. Now, at 3.20 am, I'm awake. Awake from my sleep, from my dream and still developing the new spirit.
Allah is the best planner. If He puts me in this race it means that I can compete. Insyaallah.