Path

Life will never be the same. You have your own path and I have my own path. Never compare. Once you are comparing, you will regret.

Reading other friends blog make me thinks a lot. Did I choose the correct path? Which path is correct? How long I will still depend on others? I'm still puzzle. Even though I have decided, but I'm not enjoying the feeling. Is it means I chosen the wrong path?

I will drive my on life. live your life! but, it's not as easy as saying it. Need to consider other people feelings, opinions, plans and etc,etc. I'm bored!

one step forward.

This is the right time for me to take one step forward. I cannot stay in the flat environment anymore. I have decided. Whatever happen, I'll chase my dream.

am I exaggeration?

Delete my comment? It’s ok. I have done my responsibility as a muslim. So, it’s up to you.

Kancil couple

I meet this one couple yesterday at the shopping complex parking lot. Chinese couple by the way. Came out from ‘kancil’ and they looked happy. I’m wondering, are they satisfied with their life? I mean, they are couple, married maybe and they just have ‘kancil’ as their transport. Is it enough for them?

Since I was small I always remind myself to be prepared before I’m falling in love with someone. I must have a car (a good car), a good salary and etc (which are all the good things). I think love does not important if you have nothing. You know what I mean?

Whenever you have all this good stuffs, are you thinking of marry someone with no property at all? I bet you won’t! This is what happened to me. I’m start to look for the perfect guy, charming, rich, intelligent, and religious and all the perfect things.

You already have the answer, there is no such perfect man and how I end up? Stop looking for a man.

But, by looking at this couple I meet, it’s change my view on the relationship. Happiness is something that you cannot measure. It has no comparison at all. You cannot compare with money, car, house, good looking and etc. It’s natural.

Real

Life must go on. Everybody knows. I'm just ordinary person. Please, please don't aspect much from me. I have no strength to face it :'( 

Asperger's Symptom

When looking at the facebook wall, many of them wrote exam, exam, and exam. I miss that moment. Really miss. A year has passed, but the memory is still here. Miss my friends, room, environment, college, faculty and everything in the university. I wish I can turn the clock back.

I really enjoy my college period even though I’m not the one who’s active in college and university. I love to read and I love to learn.

The only thing I hate during that time is presentations! I hate it a lot. I hate attention. When you are presenting, of course your class mate will give a full attention. That’s why I hate presentation. I think I’m sick. Normal people loveeee attention and they are always looking for it.

Now I’m reading a novel with the title of ‘House Rules’ wrote by Jodi Picoult. The main character is Jacob who’s suffering from Asperger’s, kind of autistic. Live in his own world and hate attention. That’s why I said I’m sick; I have the same symptom with Jacob. Hahaha.

Outdated

Some people say I’m an outdated person. Not going out late night, no communicate with mans, very shy, very limited friends, have no social life as they are. But, who cares?

Yes, I’m an outdated person and I happy with my life. Stay at home most of the day, do cooking, cleaning, washing and what so ever job in the house. I’m happy to accompany my family and help them especially my parents.

I did go for movies, walks, vacations, chats, shopping and attending some of the invitation, but all of this just involved my family and best friend.

One fact that people always need to remember is I’m a muslim. A muslim’s girl cannot simply hang out with a non relationship man.

Feels

People will never understand what we feels.

A week at the hospital, I learned so many things. Respect, resposibility, love, understanding, careness and etc.

Sometimes, when looking around, I realised, how grateful I am to be borned in my family. Full of happiness, full of love, full of respect. Thank you Allah.

LOL

I like him. hahaha. Dreaming that he will introduce himself to me.hahaha (laughing like devil!). Who knows Allah will make it happen right? Pray to Allah this thing gonna be real :) Insyaallah

Adding friends? It's my obsesssion!

On facebook, adding some friends. actually lots of friend.hahaha. i'm obsessed adding friends right now. and i'm so surprised because i just meet my ex-classmate on 1996! This is incredible.

We have a little chat. she's married! hahaha.

I always laugh when people asked me on married topic.why? because I have no answer for that question. I'm still single and I have  no plan for it yet. hrmmm. Many of my friends will getting married soon. Do you think I'm happy with that? Of course I'm happy for them for their happiness day ever, but deep inside my heart I feel lonely.

To stay single is my choice, sure I can manage my feelings but when people around you keep asking about marriage, this is so discouraging me.

Jodoh

Jangan kata kami memilih. Jangan!

Sekufu,

Memilih pasangan sekufu adalah tuntutan agama. Islam menggalakkan perkahwinan sekufu. Salah ke kami memilih @ menunggu lelaki sekufu? Orang sekeliling senang bercakap "tak payah la pilih sekufu pun,gaji ko sorang pun dah lebih dari cukup.asal kahwin sudah la". Betul gaji kami lebih dari cukup. tapi ape sebenarnye fungsi suami?bukan kah suami itu bertanggungjawab untuk memberi nafkah kepada isteri? dan perkara yang paling ditakuti, hilang nya rasa hormat kepada suami. Isteri-isteri dengan mudah meninggi suara, nauzubillah. Kenapa isteri berani untuk meninggi suara?sebab standard nya lebih tinggi dari suami, 80% keperluan rumah isteri yang beli, makan minum isteri yang keluar belanja, dia mana guna nye suami? Kami berkahwin untuk masuk syurga. Selagi tidak di pertemukan dengan yang sekufu, biar la kami menjadi hak mutlak kepada ibu bapa kami. Biar kami mudah untuk masuk ke syurga.

Imam,

Berapa ramai lagi teruna di luar sana yang mampu untuk menjadi imam kepada kami? Kami berkahwin untuk mencari imam kepad hidup kami, kami tidak mahu terumbang ambing. Kami mahu masuk syurga. Buat apa berkahwin, jika agama diketepikan? Jangan kata kami cerewet. Jangan! Kami insan lemah, kami perlu kan pembimbing. Jika si teruna sendiri tidak mampu untuk menjadi imam kepada diri sendiri, bagaimana pula boleh menjadi imam kepada kami? Kami bukan hanya mencari suami, tetapi kami juga mencari bapa kepada zuriat kami.

Ada lagi kah teruna di luar sana yang boleh menyayangi kami seperti mana kami disayangi oleh bapa kami sendiri? Jika ada,sila la pinang kami. Jika tiada, biar la kami bertaat setia dengan bapa kami sendiri. Tidak perlu ada lelaki lain sekiranya itu membebankan. Kami mahu masuk Syurga.

P/s : sebab tu kalau orang bercakap tentang jodoh, aku senyum je walaupun aku tahu diorg tujukan untuk aku. jodoh, Allah yang tentukan. takperlu rasa nya tergesa-gesa :)